shit….

Well, I’ve been thwarted, for the time being… I am never going to be completely thwarted, but I have been lets say put on hold.

So I am writing this blog, as you all know as a memorium for my progress to, thru and after med school. Well my undergrad colllege experience has been thwarted by my parent’s lack of desire to pay for my education. Then entire time I was growing up my divorced parents had the notion that each of them would pay a third of my education and I would pay the last third. So this was the idea that I had when I chose to go to a major state college. Ya… they decided that they werent going to pay for any of it. So I am stuck with a 7 thousand dollar first semester bill, and no student loans nor scholarships (being a white male….. ya another rant)… so I am thwarted, I will be spending the next 6 months working my butt off so I can afford to go to a smaller less noted state school. So i just have to figure out how to afford and pay for all these things… good god do I need help! shit! lol

So soon enough I will be back on that road, more to come. Stay tuned!

Fhew!

as per usual, i freak myself out way too much, i worry way too much, and with no real need. So last week I had a test in the only real science class that I am at all worried about this semester, and I had been freaking out about it for about a week prior and had spent just about half my life in the library before it. Then after it i didnt think i did that well, i had woke up late so i almost missed the test in the first place, the people next to me were loud and both were sick. So i didnt think i performed well, but low and behold I got the test grade back… 100% HECK YA! I was so amazed and excited I actually let out a little yelp in the library. hehehe I figured that it was due to the large amount of extra credit he had put on the test but infact I had actually aced the test. I was so proud and relieved!

Thanksgiving break is coming up at the end of this week, i can honestly say that I am exstatic for it. I have time where I dont have to go to class and yet I still have about 2 hours a day of studying to get done every day. Finals are a week after we get back and so i cant relax now, i need to find some resolve and make it through. Soon enough I will be on top of it, i will be making the things happen that I need to. Make things happen. enjoy life while you can, that at least what i keep telling myself. Just push a little further… just remember why. I have to stay focused and devoted. If i ever want my goals to be realized i need to stay focused.

I dont know if i told you about my roommate of the moment, he was a good friend of mine until of course we moved in with each other. hehe Anyway, he decided to follow the advice that you can major in anything and still go into medicine… well i am excited to say that one out of the 36000 people competeing with me is out. He has decided that he doesnt want to go into medicine. (he should have listened to me earlier) one down 35998 to go! yea!